Convocation Date

Date: 15-6-09

After results released, our convocation date known as well…

Yesterday morning when I reach office, I checked my email…

I found UTAR send me an email about convocation…

They informed us about our convocation date…

From the past few years, convocation held at the end of August…

But, this time is different…

It held on early of August…

Then, I quickly call my mum & inform her…

She says will inform my elder brother…

But, my elder brother not sure whether he can take leave or not…

At that period, his company will shut down the machine for maintenance...

Hopefully, he can attend....

After I get to know the date, I’m very happy...

This is because I can meet back all my dear friends again...

I also started to imagine the surrounding feeling during the convocation...

Besides informing my family members, I also informed my ex-boyfriend...

He called me before & asking me about our convocation date...

He used to be our classmate for 1 semester...

Therefore, he wishes to attend also...

But, I’m not sure whether he will really attend or not...

It’s for sure that I’m already informing him...

Whether he is attending or not, it is not my responsible...

I also inform Shin, Michael & Mei Ling about this...

Too bad that Shin’s convocation date is different from us...

Hers is on Friday while us is on Sunday...

I hope I can attend hers as she is 1 of my best friend...

I hope to share her happiness as well...

There is one person whom I’m still thinking of whether I should invite or should I not to invite...

He used to promise me several times for attending my convocation...

But, the promise made before we are separate...

I don’t think he has the responsible to fulfill this promise...

Because the promise doesn’t have any meaning to him now...

He also ever requested me to invite him after we are separate...

That request also made few months ago...

So, I wonder...

Will he attend if I’m really inviting him??

I really don’t know...

I miss...

Date: 13-06-2009
I miss blogging so much…
I can’t always update my blog…
I feel so sad…
No internet access at home…
I’m trying to write in Chinese at home & post it by using company’s computer…
But, it seems like cannot…
I miss my dear room mate—Cheh Shin as well…
I miss Michael also…
I miss all those friends that always can chat with me…
I’m so bored…
I miss all the time having in university…
University life is the most enjoyable time…
I’m really missing it…
Nowadays, I seldom talk…
Because there is nobody I can talk to…
This few years, Shin is the one who always talk to me…
Every time when I feel bored, I will just walked into our room then talk to her…
If not, I will talk to Michael when he comes & find me…
I’m really clicked with both of them…
I can talk non-stop when both of them are beside me…
I’m really missing them a lot…
Not only both of them, I’m really missing others as well…
Now, we are far apart from each other…
Everyone has their things to busy with…
I hope to get back with them again…
They mean a lot to me…
So, whenever they need me, I will never reject…
I realised this friendship very important to me since after I have been deeply hurt by someone… At that moment, they are the one who helps me to stand up from sadness…
They help me to walk out from memories…
I can feel their concerned…
I can feel the friendship love…
Therefore, I’m really appreciating this friendship…
In this world, not only family members and lover are important to us…
Friends are very important to us as well…
They may be the one who knows you well…
That’s why I miss them so much since after we are in different places…
I will always remember the great moment we are having together…
We had been to a lot of places before…
We had been to Pangkor Island, Ketam Island, Genting Highlands, Redang Island, Adai’s house, the waterfall nearby Adai’s house, singing karaoke at Greenbox, shopping, watching movie in a big batch, steamboat gathering taking photos around the campus & a lot more activities…
Those are the great moments I spent with them…
The moments I will never forget…

当你爱了不爱你的人时

当他不爱你时，无论过去他是否爱过后来却忘了，又或者是否是从未爱过。当你无法成为他心里的那个人时，他的心便不会记得你。虽然他知道你深爱他，但他寧可选择装作是不知道。

当他不爱你时，请不要在你不开心，或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。他那儿绝对不是你此刻 应该的去处。也许他会在接到你的电话的时候，淡淡地安慰你几句，却也仅此而已。也许你会再想要一点什么，于是说：“我们见面吧。”而他肯定心有烦躁了。当 他不爱你的时候，你的爱，你的人，就会显得廉价许多。你佔了下风，这是人的本性。他会说：“好，不过我现在有点事情。晚点的时候你再给我电话吧。或者我给 你电话也可以。”而你这时千万不要当真，他只是找了个不是很高明的理由来搪塞你。请，不要真的去等，不要骗自己。

当他不爱你时，请不要与他讲你的琐事，也许此刻，你不过是希望让彼此更熟悉一些。只是，他却无暇更是没有兴趣去瞭解你。他也很快会忘记的，就如他忘记你的生日，你的地址，你的电话一样。没有爱，于是你注定挤不进他的生命。即使，你要的哪怕只是一个很小很小的角落。

当他不爱你时，请不要在他的面前流眼泪，不要在生病的时候告诉他。他无法给予你照顾和关心。至多是同情一下，而，请骄傲的你，不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。虽然太多的人，在爱的面前丟失了太多。连站起来的勇气都没有。

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上面的文章是我在网上无意间读到的...

它忽然让我领悟到一些些事情...

断，就该断的彻底...

当他爱上另外一个人的时候，他就不会再在乎你的一切了...

也不会再关注你的一切...

所以，当你告诉他关于你的一切时，他也许只是礼貌性的应酬...

身边的好朋友都希望我能放下之前那段不快乐的回忆...

他们也花了蛮长的一段时间来安抚我...

还好，那段时间有他们的陪伴...

他们让我知道...

原来失去不会是损失...

因为，下一个会更好...

Michael也让我领悟到，曾经爱过也是一种幸福...

不要因为失去而伤心，要因为曾经拥有而微笑...

我应该要为他当初真心爱我而开心...

而不是因为他离去而哭泣...

我也是因为他们的鼓励而慢慢的站起来...

我也已经原谅了他...

把他当回朋友，偶尔问候他、关心他...

这样就足够了...

做得太多只会变得多余...

我承认自己还需要时间去忘记我和他的回忆...

因为，要忘记一段感情真的不容易...

但，我已经不再是那个当初对他抱着希望的我了...

人人常说失恋最好的良药就是新的恋情...

我相信他早就康复了...

所以，我现在只想默默的祝福他...

祝他幸福...

祝他一切安好、顺利...

有时候，放手也会是一种幸福...

他也许不是上天指定给我那个对的人...

我现在要继续寻找那个对的人...

Touching

Although today feel a bit sad about the results, but i feel touched at the same time...
I feel so touch because there are still a lot of friends that support me...
They say they are willing to teach me...
They say they are willing to help me go through this exam...
Thank you Michael!!!
Thank you Mei Ling!!!
Thank you Rayson!!!
Thank you Lee Kwong!!!
Thank you Adai & my dear roommate that give me moral support!!!
Wan Ling & I will go through this!!!
We will make sure we can meet everyone in our convocation...
Rayson still says that he is waiting to be my photo model during convocation...
Funny guy...Haha:p
I'm really touch & happy that i still have true friends...
I'm really appreciate everything that you all done to me...
Especially Cheh Shin & Michael!!!
Every time when i need them, they surely will be with me...
I LOVE u guys so much!!!

Sad Case

Really a sad case...
After waited for so many days, our results finally released...
I get a "F" for my last paper...
I almost fall asleep for my nap...
Suddenly my phone rang by receiving a sms from my friend by saying results are out!!
I straight away jump up & check my results...
But, it really disappoint me...
Some of them get a "D" for that paper...
I'm really prefer i get a "D"...
At least if i can't get through for the supplementary paper, i still can graduate...
So, i'm very worry right now...
I'm very worry what if i can't graduate...
I really don't want to be left out...
I want to attend the convocation together with them...
I must pass this time...
No matter how hard it is, i want to pass!!!
I must pass this time!!!Arghh!!
Anyway, congratulation to all my friends who get all pass!!!
You guys have made it!!!

Complicated Feelings

There are complicated feelings in my heart now...
I'm really don't know what i want...
Started to lost direction again...
My younger brother & few people keep on asking me not to stay back here & work...
They wanted me to go Singapore & find a job...
Yesterday, my mum just told me the reasons of my brother asking me to go Singapore...
I'm really too dependent on others...Sigh...
I just don't know why...
Whenever i come back here, i will be very dependent...
When i'm in KL, i know that i can't rely on anyone...
Therefore, i will settle everything on my own...
It is my bad habit...
This few days keep on think & think...
Should i really stay back here??
Or should i go far far away from my hometown??
I need someone to talk to...
A person that can helps me to analyse everything...
A person that can shares his or her experience to me...
While thinking of this, i'm worried about my results as well...
Until today, our results still haven't release...
Everyone is worried about it...
Almost everyday come & ask me whether the results has been released or not...Sigh...
GOD, please gives me good news...
I want good news, please!!!
Sometimes, i'm really admire those person that can leave the place they know well & start to explore everything by their own...
Just like him before this...
He can go to a place that he is not familiar...
Went there to interview & get a job that he planned to get...
When only i can be like those person...
I really hope to be independent...
I don't want to be treated just like a small kids...Sigh...

A Bad News

Sigh...
Just getting a bad news from the company...
Few days ago, i sent in my resume to 1 company...
Then, just now only get the news...
I didn't get the job...
Actually, that company is the company that my sister done her internship...
The company is hiring my sister only...
No any vacancy for me any more...
Never mind...
I will try my luck on another companies...
I will send my resume to other companies first...
If I really can't find job at KT...
Then, i will heading back to KL & find it...
A bad news today...
Hope that the following news will be good one...
A lot of people waiting for my following good news...
I hope i can pass for all the subjects!!!!
I think the results are releasing very soon...
What i can only do now is sit back, relax & wait...

Waiting

I'm now sitting at home waiting for my results to come out...
I'm also waiting for an important news from someone...
Hope that all the news that i'm waiting for will be a good one...
I think our results will be release by this few days...
As supplementary exams will begin on next week...
I want good news, please...
After getting back from Redang island, then i'm sick...
Sigh...Every time after changing environment, i sure will get sick...
I still can't adapt the environment that is different from KL...
Michael is having interview in Sime Darby today...
So jealous that he can have the opportunity for this interview...
I hope that he can get the job...
I'm also waiting a call from the person that i care & love so much...
I really hope she can go through everything by herself...
She promised me that she will find me once she feels better...

I'll be there for you

My dear, I'll be there for you whenever you needs me...
I really hope that you will be fine soon...
I really hope that i can borrow all my energy to you...
I really hope that you can be strong & tough to face everything happens to you...
Yesterday after talking on phone with you, i feel very helpless...
I can't even help anything...
I just can pray hard for you...
Pray hard that u can go through everything...
I'm really worried about you...
You told me that you ever think of commit suicide...
I really hope that you will not think of it anymore...
Commit suicide cannot settle everything...
There are still people that loves you...
Although you are facing a hard time at this moment & you feel it very terrible...
But, i believe that somehow everything will be changing...
Everything will be all right...
You are always be there for me during my sad time...
Therefore, whenever you needs me, I'll be there for you as well...
You are always the one i love & care...
GAMBATE!!!!
GOD, please help her to go through everything that happens to her right now...

热浪岛 + 登加楼之旅

10.9.09-我们16个人从kl乘搭10晚上的巴士...
到达瓜登时是凌晨4.15...
我们在巴士站等了1小时45分钟...
等待着resort的负责人来开休息屋的门给我们放行李...
同时，我们也等待着妈咪的到来...
放了行李后，我和妈咪带大家到唐人街吃早餐...
我们在7.30就准时出发到码头去了...
坐了很久的巴士才到达码头...
之后，又不知道坐了多久的船才到达我们的目的地--热浪岛
第一张照片是我在我们居住的resort前面拍的...

这个就是我们居住的resort了...
我把它的招牌拍下来...

楼上那3间就是我们的房间啦...

吃了午餐后的我们，闲着没事做...
结果，他们几个就在烈日当中打起沙滩排球啦...

大佬在开球...

我就在这里纳凉...哈哈^^
我们在等待着2.30pm出海去潜水...
第一天潜水，我们没有拍到照片...
起初我下水时，我感到很害怕...
但是，我望到海里的生物时，那种感觉真的很奥妙...
海底世界原来那么美...
亲身体验的感觉果然不一样...

潜水回去之后，大家也是没事情做...
所以，他们就打起lami和麻将咯...
我不会玩，所以只好呆着...
就连Mike叫我玩扑克牌我也不会...
哎...真悲哀...

证明我来过热浪岛...哈哈^^

戴着焕霖墨镜的我...
第一天的我在吃饱饭后就很累了...
结果，我很早就睡了...
他们在沙滩上拍照就少了我的份...
真的太累了...
第一天告一段落...

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11.5.09-7点多就醒来了...
一早醒来精神饱满的...
吃完早餐后，那边的负责人就带我们到国家海洋公园去潜水...
在出发前，我们必须走进海里上船...
早上的海水很高...
搞得大佬放相机的包包差点淹没了...
吓得大佬脸青青...
阿呆的书包也飘在海上...
还好我放在阿呆书包里的相机是能进水的...
不然，我就真的会哭了...

这是我们运用跟resort租回来的相机拍的...

不知道是谁被鱼群围绕...

这是我们在等待第2次潜水的空档拍的...

我们正前往拍摄夏热默默茶的景点...
路途上，我们看到这个地方蛮美...
所以，就停下来拍照...

Rabbit和我跟招牌一起合照...

这是我们第2次出海潜水的时候...

其中一位负责人把我按下海底里拍照...
我们每个人都有轮流拍呢...
也许，只有那么一次能在海里拍照...

出海回去后，发觉租回来的相机还剩下很多空档...
所以，我们就继续下海拍照...
这一张是大佬建议我们男女大打斗...
结果，就是我和Michael打...
很不公平的是Michael高高在上...
可是，我有很多帮手...哈哈^^
焕霖和甄茹一直帮我挡在后面...
无论Michael怎么推，我都不会跌的...哈哈^^真是有趣...

Yeah!!!我们胜利了...哈哈^^

之后，他们就开始玩起丢人下海的游戏啦...
每一个人都被丢...
这是大佬抱起我，准备把我丢出去的时候...
他轻而易举的就把我抱起来了...
我就一直在尖叫...
因为，他们说要把我丢向后面...
吓得我一直尖叫咯...

我被丢下水的模样...
我的手尽然打到美菱，所以她也跟着我一起下水了...
最后要丢Justin的时候是最惨的...
因为，他很会跑...
几个人一起追他都很难捉到他...
大佬还追到跌倒呢...
大佬跌倒后，我就继续追...
最后，给我追到咯...
我紧紧的抱着他，然后大家一起来托他下水...
追他真的是累人...
之后，我们就把阿呆埋在沙里...
那张照片我不敢放在这里...
因为，他们做了一些很恶心的动作...

接下来，我们就摆起阵啦...
经过几次失败后，我们终于成功拍到完美的啦...

这是另外一个阵...
拍完照片后，已经蛮迟了...
期间，我们还坐在海边唱歌呢...哈哈^^
我们真的是疯狂...
晚上，就因为下雨我们就继续打麻将和lami咯...
不然，我们还说好要去拍照了...
他们教会我打lami了...
还蛮好玩的...
第二天就这样结束了...

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12.5.09-凌晨4点多就醒来了...
我们几个约好了要看日出...

等了2个小时才看到一点点光线...
这是6.13am拍的...

这是6.27am拍的...
才14分钟就变那么多了...
我很喜欢这张照片的颜色...

7点咯...太阳终于看的很清楚了...

这张是Mike帮我拍的...
我正在欣赏着我拍下来的成果...
他说这张照片很有写意的味道...

到最后剩下我们5个看日出...
Mike在拿着相机拍我们...
而大佬呢，就走到海边继续拍照了...

准备离开热浪岛了...

我们跟热浪岛说再见...

回到瓜登，我就带大家回到休息屋...
之后，我就带他们去吃午餐...
吃饱后，我就带他们去乘搭bas bandar去环绕瓜登...
图片就是那辆巴士咯...特别吧???

在巴士上的我们...

巴士司机带我们到这个地方--Crystal Mosque
这个回教堂是供游客参观的...
这是文莱苏丹送给瓜登苏丹的...
这也是一个特别的建筑物...
逛完这里后，我们又回到休息屋...
休息一会儿后，我们又再次出发到唐人街吃晚餐...
由于我家的车容纳不了那么多人，所以我们整天的行程都是以脚代步...
晚餐后，我又带他们环绕唐人街...
这就是最后一天的行程了...
虽然我晒得很黑，不过回忆让我觉得一切都是值得的...
我在休息屋呆到10点多才回家...
我选择了比他们先离开...
因为，我不希望看见他们离去的背影...
我害怕自己会狂哭...
临走前，大佬、美菱、阿呆和Justin走出来送我...
我紧紧拥抱他们，但除了Justin...
因为，他向来比较害羞...
所以，我没有走过去抱他...
结果我一上车后，他们3个就一直说我没有抱Justin...
拥抱让我更舍不得他们...
我的眼泪一直在眼眶里打滚...
我真的很舍不得他们...
他们让我感到友情的温暖...
他们总是让我感到我并不孤单...
当然，也少不了洁芯啦...
我真的和他们分开了...
希望我们的友谊真的能一直保存下去...
大家，珍重了!!!
我会时时想念我们之间的一切的...
还有好多的照片没有放出来...
找时间我才慢慢的上传到facebook里...