Why Again...

Why? Why? Why?
Why our friendship will become until like this?
Just because 1 thesis things, it makes our friendship broke...
I just don't understand why they want to care so much...
Is it our frienship not worth enough? I also don't know...
Now, we feel like in our class, there have a lot of people are look at 4 of us at one kind...
They are just watching puppet show...
I just don't want to care how they look at us...
I just want to concentrate on my studies & graduate smoothly from here...
What they want to say or how they will look at us is their business...
I'm really lazy to bother them...
I just hope that this 1 year can pass with smooth & fast...
That's all i want!!!

Middle Person

I become the middle person again today...
I hate to be a middle person...
It is a tired position..
You need to pass the words from "A" to "B"...
I don't know why friends will be changing until like that...
Why can't they communicate by themselves??
Why i always need to be the person who pass the message??
I'm really tired for this...
Sometimes it will be very tough for me to speak out...
Until one day if i could not stand it, i sure will scold people again...
I don't hope to see all these to happen...
In fact, i couldn't change it...
They already be "hi bye friends"...
Why all these will happen??
I don't want to be middle person anymore...
I will reject their request already!!!
I'm really tired to do all these...
Enough for now!!!

New Semester!!!

Step into new semester again...
Is already final year...
Feel very stress after attending the Research Methodology & Project tutorial class...
It has a lot of things we need to be done...
I really this time i can done better...
I must put more effort in...
Therefore, i really the new house things can settle as soon as possible...
As i have the responsible to make sure the telephone line & streamyx is available...
Assignments are started to be assigned for us & the busy life will begin again...
This year will be even more busy as we need to cope with studies, assignments plus thesis...
I really feel tired for this moment...
Few days can't really have a nice sleep...
I hope i can rest well first before i face my "big war"...
Before i came back here, i even told my younger brother that i don't hope to come back here because i need to face a lot of challenges, difficulties & problems...
I know that this is coward thinking...
Some how or rather i stil have to face it any where as well...
As Janice told me last night...
Just face & adapt the unexpected changes as we can't change it anymore...
I just don't know why...
Suddenly i have the feel like i'm far far away from everyone...
What i mean is i don't feel like joining them...
Don't feel like telling anything to anyone...
Is it i'm starting to build wall beyond myself?? I also don't know...

Friendship

What is friendship to me now?
I also don't know...
I feel like everyone among of my friends are changing...
Why suddenly becomes like that?
I don't hope to change until like that...
Our group assignment become separated as well as my thesis group...
Why i feel suddenly the freindship among us is changing...
Like don't have any trust among us already...
It's just left for 1 year to go...
Suddenly feel very sad to be like that...
*Sigh* Just can try to adapt it...

反省

我真的要好好反省了...

我没有想到原来我在你心目中是那么差的...

你知道吗？

我有时候会觉得我们的距离越来越远了...

我好像也越来越不了解你了...

我不知道你是不是有同感呢？

你可以将很多东西收在你的心里，但最后说出来时就闹成双方都不愉快了...

我不是要怪你的意思...

我想以后我不开心时，最好告诉你我不开心...

然后，你就不要打电话给我...

这样我就不会拿你来出气了...

我真的非常需要学会好好处理自己的情绪和问题...

以前，要是一发生什么是我就会跟家人说...

我觉得自己太依赖了...

所以， 现在我要学会不要跟任何一个人说，而尝试用自己的力量去解决...

我说过，我要在21之前脱胎换骨...

我这次真的要好好反省，改变自己...

我要变的更独立、更有自信！

Boring

I feel so bored now...
Arrghhh...Why am i get a D for Company Law!!!!!!!!
If not, now i'm already at home...
Tomorrow also can celebrate Mother's Day for my mum already...*Sigh*
Really bored staying back here...
Nobody at this house...
Most of them already back to hometown...
I'm going to be crazy...
Nobody talks to me...I'm so lonely:'(
Arrghhh...I want to go back hometown...
I really miss my home and my mum...
I'm really hope that i can celebrate Mother's Day for her...
I hope that the following subjects will be all pass...
Then, i can stay at home longer to accompany my mum already...

Finish Exams

Yeah!!!!!
Finally finish exams...
Looking forward to back to my hometown...
Feels like very long never went back there...
Today's paper was quite ok...
So, i think should be no worry for that subject...
Now waiting for the previous 4 subjects results to be released...
Hope that i will not fail for this semester...
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Today is the day daddy passed away for 12 years...
Daddy, although you has leave us but you are always in our heart...
I hope i can go home within this few days as Sunday is Mother's Day...
I hope that i can be beside my mum...
I already missed her birthday celebration for last week...
So, hope that i can celebrate Mother's Day for her...
Please pray for me to pass for few subjects in front that have been examine...

Feeling Bad

Since wake up i have a bad mood...
Doesn't really feel like talking to anyone...
Doesn't really want to face anyone...
I just feel like lock myself in an empty room while listening my lovely songs...
I wish to go back home...
I'm really wish to go back there...
There can gives me the warmness that i want...
Here doesn't have any of the home warmness...
I miss my home...
I miss my mum so much!!!!!!
Feels like crying since last night but can't even cried...
*Sigh* What a bad feeling that i had...

You are My Sunshine

You Are My Sunshine My Only Sunshine

是你让我懂得爱　幸福却简单

You Are My Sunshine My Only Sunshine

因为有了你的爱　从此不平凡　展开

You Are My Sunshine My Only Sunshine

是你让我懂得爱　幸福却简单

You Are My Sunshine My Only Sunshine

因为有了你的爱　从此不平凡　展开

曾经为了爱情寻寻觅觅　却换来空白

终于随着冬叶走向渐黄　放弃了等待

出乎意料　你就这样闯进我的生命来

就是你　让我发呆也想着爱

You Are My Sunshine　My Only Sunshine

是你让我懂得爱　幸福却简单

You Are My Sunshine　My Only Sunshine

因为有了你的爱　从此不平凡　展开

忍不住要对你的温柔　轻声的赞美

喝着白开水也会醉　原来快乐在调味

怎么眼睛里的世界变得只剩灰与黑

Oh Baby　因为你太耀眼

You Are My Sunshine　My Only Sunshine

是你让我懂得爱　幸福却简单

You Are My Sunshine　My Only Sunshine

因为有了你的爱　从此不平凡　展开

谁说爱情都有期限　谁说爱情没有永远

不要闭着你的双眼　不管未来有多远　都能看得见

原来爱情像个圆圈　起点　终点　同一条线

只要甜蜜不断蔓延　心贴着就不疲倦　永远其实近在眼前

You Are My Sunshine　My Only Sunshine

是你让我懂得爱　幸福却简单

You Are My Sunshine　My Only Sunshine

因为有了你的爱　从此不平凡　展开

(Everytime I See Your Face　甜蜜不断在蔓延)

You Are My Sunshine My Only Sunshine

是你让我懂得爱　幸福却简单

(Everytime I See Your Face　甜蜜不断在蔓延)

You Are My Sunshine　My Only Sunshine

因为有了你的爱　从此不平凡　展开

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这首歌很适合我要对你表达的爱意...

你知道吗？没有你在我身边的日子有点难过...

寂寞时，找不到人来陪...

伤心时，却没有一个温暖的拥抱...

我真的、真的很想你...

真的好期待我们重逢的那一天....

你知道我有时候就算累了也不要去睡觉吗？

为的就是听你的声音...

一天就只有那一段时间可以听到你的声音...

只有这样我才能感到那一丝丝的温暖...

没有你在的日子真的好没有安全感呢...

不过没关系啦...

这是我们之间的考验...

唯有天天等待...

等到你回来的那一天到来...