Bad Thing Happens on Father's Day

Date: 21-06-2009

Today is not a good day for my family...

My younger brother being robs inside Mid Valley shopping centre...

He & his friend were walking out from MPH bookstore...

Suddenly, there are 3 people walk to them & pull them aside...

They asked for hand phone, ATM cards & the pin numbers...

My bro said those guys tell them that they are loan shark...

They asked both of them do not resist as they have 40 people outside there...

So, both of them don’t really dare to do anything...

He lost almost RM2000 for them...

What a bad luck he had today...

I told my mum that my dad went to celebrate Father’s Day already...

So, he didn’t taking care of my younger brother...

We always believe that my dad always blessing us from the place he is right now...

Luckily nothing happened to my younger brother...

He just loses money but not life...

If not, I can’t imagine on the consequences...

I always pray hard that nothing will happens on anyone of them...

We already lost our dad...

So, we can’t lose anyone anymore...

We say may be this is a huge misfortune that he can’t escape from it...

My mum & I were still talking about him when she fetches me back from work...

We are headache with the way he spent money...

He is not getting loan for this semester as his results not fulfill the requirement...

Therefore, we are headache with his living cost...

My sis & I need to take some part time jobs to support his financial condition...

Hopefully he will take this lesson & spend money wisely after this...

I need to repay back my loan, need to pay for my insurance, need to support him as well as giving some allowance to my mum...

I still want to continue for my ACCA exams...

All also needs money...Sigh...

I’m really needed to find few part time jobs already...

Heavy burden on my shoulder now...

But, I still have to face it with strong & happy manner...

I don’t want anyone to worry about me anymore...

So, I need to learn to settle up my problem on my own...

Losing Another Friend in My Life

Date: 20-06-2009

Early in the morning when I woke up today, I’m wondering why I dream of him...

As a matter of fact, I found his reply message on facebook...

A shock message from him...

No wonder I will dream of him...

The dream is like bringing some hint message to me...

He told me that was the last message for me...

As he already breaks his promise for many times to his girl friend...

His promise towards her is to totally lost contact from me...

Means that totally lose me as his friend...

I was sad when I saw that message...

This is because friends are very important to me nowadays...

I really don’t want to lose anyone of them...

Not even one of it...

I’m losing 2 friends already...

The first friend I lost really makes me disappointed on him...

I also don’t want to mention it here anymore...

Talking back bout this person...

I admit that I’m really angry & hate him so much when I found out he is cheating me for so long before this...

Until I lose my appetite, lose few kgs weight, lose concentration on my studies & even keep on crying in front of Shin for many times...

I can’t think of any reasons of him cheating me...

I’m really hurt that time...

Michael & Shin are the one who always cheer me up & enlighten me...

Of course, others also show their concerned towards me...

I’m really appreciating & touch for everything they done to me...

Even though I used to lose sight of them for a period, but they still accept me as a friend when I get back to them when I lose him...

They never left me alone when they know I need them...

Since after that, I slowly walk out from the sadness & concentrate on my studies & final exams...

Without them, I don’t think I can pass through all these & even my final exams...

After my final exams, I think of forgive him & accept him back as my friend...

I found that if I still hate him, I will not happy in my life...

Therefore, I started to talk back with him...

Forgiveness is good for both of us as well...

But, started from today, I will totally lose him as a friend in my life already...

I totally understand the reasons he need to do all these...

He just wanted to protect his love...

As if I’m in his girl friend’s position, I think I will do the same thing as well...

So, I won’t blame him for that...

I just feel very sad & too bad to lose another friend in my life...

Before this, I’m still thinking whether I should or should not invite him to my convocation...

However, he accidentally knows about the date of my convocation on the other day...

I know he will not attend for it even though he made promises to me before...

I know his condition right now...

Even though I’m really hoping for his attendance on my convocation, but I can’t & will not force him to do that...

After I read his message this morning, I wanted to find someone to talk with...

So, I called Shin just now...

Talked with her half way about her interview today, then she has things to do already...

Therefore, I don’t want to disturb her...

Then, I sms Michael...

I forget that he has class today...

So, can’t talk to him as well...

But, he still shows his concern towards me although he is not convenient to call me when he found out what is really happening on me from another friend...

Thanks, Michael!!!

You are always the best for me...

Although he is very busy nowadays...

At least he is still keeping me as his good friend inside his heart...

I also know that everyone is busy & I don’t hope to disturb them so much as well...

So, blogging will be my very best friend right now...

Anyway, even though we will be lost contact from each other...

But, I will forever treat him as my friend in my heart...

A friend that I always concerned for...

If one day he needs my help as a friend, I will still there for him...

That is my promise to all my friends...

I will never reject whenever my friends need my help...

Unless there is something bad or I can’t made it...

I’m sincerely hoping the best for him...

Hopefully, he will blissful & happy for his whole life...

And I also hope that he can really fight for his bright future...

Friend, no matter what you are going to do...

Don’t forget that, there is a lost contact friend that will always support you from the deep of my heart...

I really hope to see him success in one day...

Then, I will be happy for him already...

I already promise him that I will not interrupt his life anymore...

So, I will keep my promise as well...

Hoping that he will take good care of himself always...

I will learn to be strong whenever I meet problems like what he always told me to do...

Updates

Date: 16-6-09

I have been working for around half month...

But I haven’t updated anything about it yet...

I’m still remembering on the 1st day I went for work...

I almost entered to the wrong place...

Luckily, my mum reminds me on it...

Went up straight to the company...

However, there is nobody yet...

After waited for couple of minutes, only there is someone who came to open the door...

My colleague doesn’t know about my present for work as my boss didn’t tell them a single thing...

Then, 1 of my colleague which is my senior now, arranged for my seat & work to do...

I was so nervous for my 1st day working because I don’t have a single experience at all...

The funniest part was my boss thought I didn’t went for work...

He called me but I silent my phone...

I was concentrate doing my things until I don’t even notice my boss entered the office...

After that, he asked 1 of my colleague whether I came in for work or not...

Luckily, that person recognises me & told me that boss wanted to see me...

Day passes by...

Until today, I learned quite a lot of things in this firm...

My plan is going on smoothly right now...

Hopefully it will remains on...

I’m not regret to choose this company...

My boss also very nice & good...

He teaches me a lot of things as well...

He told me that, us, as human should always update ourselves...

Besides that, we should know other skills if we can do so...

What he said is right...

Learning will never end until we die...

1 sentence that he said, I keep in my mind deeply...

“Interest could be cultivated”

He told me his story about choosing accounting course...

At that time, he has financial problem for his further study on engineering...

Therefore, he decided to change his interest from engineering to accounting...

I found that his situation & mine is almost the same...

Both of us study pure science in Secondary school & know nothing about accounts...

But we put effort on what we chosen & we prove the sentence right...

He is success today & I’m managed to graduate from my Degree course...

So, I’m trying to use this sentence to advice someone that I chatted today as he told me that he plans to study back...

Actually, it is not late for us to do anything...

As long as we have the initiative to do it & complete up the whole things...

Hopefully he can find out the right direction that he wanted to go for & will success 1 day...

I will always support whatever my friends wanted to do, include him...

Some more he used to be the very important person in my heart before...

Although he ever hurt me deeply before, but it is doesn’t really matter for me already...

I’m just hoping the best for him...

Hoping that he is doing fine always...

Hoping that he is happy always...

Hoping that he is success in his career...

Blessing is the best thing for me to him right now...

I also don’t know why suddenly I will act like that...

May be I already can let go everything...

Or may be just like what Shin said...

The angel in my heart has beaten up the evil...

Who knows what will happen on next moment???

But I found I’m happier by doing all these...

Convocation Date

Date: 15-6-09

After results released, our convocation date known as well…

Yesterday morning when I reach office, I checked my email…

I found UTAR send me an email about convocation…

They informed us about our convocation date…

From the past few years, convocation held at the end of August…

But, this time is different…

It held on early of August…

Then, I quickly call my mum & inform her…

She says will inform my elder brother…

But, my elder brother not sure whether he can take leave or not…

At that period, his company will shut down the machine for maintenance...

Hopefully, he can attend....

After I get to know the date, I’m very happy...

This is because I can meet back all my dear friends again...

I also started to imagine the surrounding feeling during the convocation...

Besides informing my family members, I also informed my ex-boyfriend...

He called me before & asking me about our convocation date...

He used to be our classmate for 1 semester...

Therefore, he wishes to attend also...

But, I’m not sure whether he will really attend or not...

It’s for sure that I’m already informing him...

Whether he is attending or not, it is not my responsible...

I also inform Shin, Michael & Mei Ling about this...

Too bad that Shin’s convocation date is different from us...

Hers is on Friday while us is on Sunday...

I hope I can attend hers as she is 1 of my best friend...

I hope to share her happiness as well...

There is one person whom I’m still thinking of whether I should invite or should I not to invite...

He used to promise me several times for attending my convocation...

But, the promise made before we are separate...

I don’t think he has the responsible to fulfill this promise...

Because the promise doesn’t have any meaning to him now...

He also ever requested me to invite him after we are separate...

That request also made few months ago...

So, I wonder...

Will he attend if I’m really inviting him??

I really don’t know...

I miss...

Date: 13-06-2009
I miss blogging so much…
I can’t always update my blog…
I feel so sad…
No internet access at home…
I’m trying to write in Chinese at home & post it by using company’s computer…
But, it seems like cannot…
I miss my dear room mate—Cheh Shin as well…
I miss Michael also…
I miss all those friends that always can chat with me…
I’m so bored…
I miss all the time having in university…
University life is the most enjoyable time…
I’m really missing it…
Nowadays, I seldom talk…
Because there is nobody I can talk to…
This few years, Shin is the one who always talk to me…
Every time when I feel bored, I will just walked into our room then talk to her…
If not, I will talk to Michael when he comes & find me…
I’m really clicked with both of them…
I can talk non-stop when both of them are beside me…
I’m really missing them a lot…
Not only both of them, I’m really missing others as well…
Now, we are far apart from each other…
Everyone has their things to busy with…
I hope to get back with them again…
They mean a lot to me…
So, whenever they need me, I will never reject…
I realised this friendship very important to me since after I have been deeply hurt by someone… At that moment, they are the one who helps me to stand up from sadness…
They help me to walk out from memories…
I can feel their concerned…
I can feel the friendship love…
Therefore, I’m really appreciating this friendship…
In this world, not only family members and lover are important to us…
Friends are very important to us as well…
They may be the one who knows you well…
That’s why I miss them so much since after we are in different places…
I will always remember the great moment we are having together…
We had been to a lot of places before…
We had been to Pangkor Island, Ketam Island, Genting Highlands, Redang Island, Adai’s house, the waterfall nearby Adai’s house, singing karaoke at Greenbox, shopping, watching movie in a big batch, steamboat gathering taking photos around the campus & a lot more activities…
Those are the great moments I spent with them…
The moments I will never forget…