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Friday, October 31, 2008

父母恩重如山

他是個搶劫犯,入獄一年了,從來沒人看過他。

眼看別的犯人隔三隔五日ㄉ就有人來探監,送來各種好吃的...他眼一饞,就給父母寫信,讓他們來,也不是為好吃的,就是直想著父母。

在無數封信石沉大海後,他明白了,父母拋棄了他。

傷 心和絕望之餘,他又寫了一封信,說如果父母如果再不來,他們將永遠失去他這個兒子。這不是說氣話,幾個重刑犯拉他一起越獄不是一兩天ㄉ事,他只是一直下不 了決心,現在反正是爹不親娘不愛、赤條條無牽掛了,還有什麼好擔心的?這天天氣特別冷。他正和幾個'麻吉'密謀越獄,忽然間,有人喊道: '有人來看你! '會是誰呢?

進探監室一看,他呆了,是媽媽是媽媽!
一年不見,媽媽變得都認不出來了。才五十多的人ㄌ...頭髮全白了,腰彎得像蝦子捲,人瘦得不成形,衣裳破破爛爛,一雙腳竟然光著,
滿是污垢和乾血跡,身旁還放著兩隻破麻布口袋。

娘兒兩對著看著,沒等他開口,媽媽渾濁的眼淚就流出來了,她邊抹眼淚,年邁母親邊說著:小剛,信我收到了,別怪爸媽狠心,實在是抽不開身啊,你爸……又病了,我要服侍他,再說路又遠……



這時,監獄輔導員端來一大碗熱氣騰騰的雞蛋麵進來了,熱情的說:大娘,吃口麵再談。


'劉媽媽急忙站起身,手在身上使勁的擦著:使不得、使不得。

監獄輔導員把碗還是塞到老人的手中,笑著說:我娘也就您這個歲數了,娘吃兒子一碗麵不應該嗎?劉媽媽不再說話,低下頭'呼啦呼啦'吃起來,吃得是那個快又香啊,好像多少天沒吃飯了。


等劉媽媽吃完了,小剛,看著母親那雙又紅又腫、又裂了許多乾血口的腳,忍不住問:媽,你的腳怎麼了?鞋呢?


還沒等媽媽回答,監獄輔導員冷冷地接過話回應:你媽是步行來的,鞋早磨破了。


步行?從家到這兒有三四百里路,而且很長一段是山路!


小剛他慢慢蹲下身,輕輕撫著那雙不成形的腳:'媽,你怎麼不坐車啊?怎麼不買雙鞋啊? '



媽媽縮起腳,裝著不在意的說:'坐什麼車啊,走路挺好的,唉,今年鬧豬瘟,家裡的幾頭豬全死了,天又乾干,莊稼收成不好,還有你爸……


看病……花了好多錢……你爸身子好的話,我們早來看你了,你別怪爸媽。

監獄輔導員擦了擦眼淚,悄悄退了出去。小剛低著頭問:爸的身子好些了嗎?' 小剛等了半天不見回答,頭一抬,媽媽正在擦眼淚,嘴裡卻說:'沙子迷眼了,你問你爸呀 ?!


他快好了……他讓我告訴你,別牽掛他,好好改造。


探監時間結束了。監獄輔導員進來,手裡抓著一大把錢票,說:'大娘,這是我們幾個監獄輔導人員的一點心意,您可不能光著腳走回去了,不然,小剛他可是心疼死啊!


劉媽媽雙手直搖,說:'這哪成啊,娃兒在你這裡,已夠你操心的了,我再要你錢,不是折我的壽嗎?'



監獄輔導員聲音顫抖著說:'做兒子的,不能讓你享福,反而讓老人擔驚受怕,讓您光腳走幾百里路來這兒,如果再光腳走回去,這個兒子還算個人嗎?'

小剛聞聽到已撐不住了,聲音嘶啞地喊道:'媽!'就再也發不出聲了,此時窗外也是泣聲一片,那是監獄輔導員喊來旁觀的人犯們發出的。


這時,有個獄警進了屋,故做輕鬆地說:'別哭了,媽媽來看兒子是喜事啊,應該笑才對,讓我看看大娘帶了什麼好吃的。


'他邊說邊拎起劉媽媽身旁ㄉ麻袋就倒出來,劉媽媽來不及阻擋,口袋裡的東西全倒了出來。



頓時,所有的人都錯愣了。


第一隻口袋倒出的,全是饅頭、麵餅什麼的,四分五裂,硬如石頭,而且個個不同。


不用說,這是劉媽媽一路乞討來的。劉媽媽窮極了,雙手揪著衣角,喃喃的說:'娃兒呀~別怪媽媽施討ㄉ事呢,家裡實在拿不出什麼東西……'


小剛似乎沒聽見似的,直勾勾地盯住第二隻麻袋裡倒出的東西,那是-一個骨灰盒!


他呆呆的問:'媽,這是什麼?'劉媽媽神色慌張起來,伸手要抱那個骨灰盒:'沒……沒什麼 ……'



他發瘋般搶了過來,渾身顫抖:'媽,這是什麼?!'


他媽無力地坐了下去,花白的頭髮劇烈的抖動著。好半天,她才吃力地說:'那是……你爸!為了攢錢來看你,他沒曰沒夜地打工,身子給累垮了。臨死前,他說他生前沒來看你,心裡難受,死後一定要我帶他來,看你最後一眼……'



他發出撕心裂肺的一聲吼叫:'爸,我一定會改好……接著'撲通'一聲跪了下去,一個使勁兒地用頭撞地。



'撲通、撲通',只見探監室外黑亞亞跪倒一片,痛哭聲響徹天空……

Monday, October 27, 2008

怎么办??

我到底该怎么办??

我们之间有太多、太多的不解了...

沟通真的很重要...

尤其是像我们这样远距离的感情...

其实,自己也有很多不足之处...

你可以告诉我你心里到底想些什么吗??

我们都不了解对方所要的是什么...

我真的不知道自己该怎么走下一步...

我逐渐迷失自我了...

我是不是像洁芯所说的一样...

我在感情里放太多的理智...

是不是我给自己太多的理由和借口了??

难道真的是一半机率是我一手造成今天的地步??

Sunday, October 26, 2008

小可爱

严肃的她...

她快要睡的时候...

闭上眼了...

她吐舌头...真可爱...







是我的表妹...

才出世不到2个月...

这2个星期的周末都去她家陪她玩...

video是我昨晚拍的...

才几天不见她,她就有一点胖了...

妈咪顾了她2个星期,今天回家后一定很想念她的...

我们要等到新年时才可以再见到她了...

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Big Mistake

I have made a big mistake!!!!!
I should not choose to move & stay with her again...
Our friendship already getting bad but i'm still moving in here...
And now the situation become worst & worst...
I also don't know how i want to face her...
Everyday will just know to show her "black" face in front of people...
Don't feel like bother her when i saw her like this!!!
Feel like running out from this house...
I really hope i can graduate faster & escape from her vision...
I feel so stress to stay with her...
Plus, we are still in the same tutorial group & assignment group...
She always look down on people...
Sigh...I just want a peaceful life only!!!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

公转、自转

最近,我们班上很流行公转与自转的名词...

我们所谓的公转是形容那些有伴侣的人...

至于自转呢...是形容单身或刚分手的人...

忽然觉得他们形容得好奥妙和恰当...

其实,这句名词是静琳用来形容她自己的...

因为,她不久前和男友分手...

我现在是公转的人,可是感觉在自转着...

这种感觉也有一段时间了...

常常觉得心里空荡荡的...

所以,我就常常和朋友们在一起,和他们一块出去游玩...

这样才能让我感觉没有那么空荡、寂寞...

我也常常让自己变得很忙以避免自己胡思乱想...

我已经逐渐忘了当初的感觉了...

开始不知道自己想要的是什么了...

好像又在一次迷失自我...

心里有很多说不出来的复杂感觉...

公转、自转只是差距一线的距离...

它只在于你所作出的选择而已...

一个选择足以让你改变很多...

Monday, October 13, 2008

Y3S2






Hm...Today finally get my Pangkor trip's photos...
While look back to the photos, i keep on laughing...
There are full of happy memories...
Today starts new semester...
This is the second last semester before graduate...
Suddenly, i have hard feeling...
I want to graduate faster but at the same time i feel sad to leave all my friends here...
Our class can says is a happening class...
Always joke together, laugh together...
At that moment, u will suddenly forget about all your bad things or sad things...
I still left this 2 semesters to stay with them...
I just can't imagine what will i be when i want to graduate...
May be i will cry badly??
May be i will not...
I also don't know...
But, i feel happy with my life now...
Although there are a lot of pressures from homework, test, assignments & so on...
I have learned to appreciate all the time i spend with them...
Thanks to all my friends who makes me laugh when i'm sad...
And thanks for their helping when i need them...
Thanks, my dear friends!!!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

1st Flight Experience

I was taking my 1st flight in my life yesterday evening...
The feel is quite nice...
Can look down the scenery from the window...
All the clouds is just so near with us & it's very nice...
Those clouds are like cotton...
After reaching to LCCT, i'm just like don't know where should i go...
Then, i open my mouth & ask someone in charge there to get into the bus which where i want to go==> Nilai KTM station...
After 1 & a half hour later, the bus stop at a bus station and everyone get down...
I was just blindly follow...
I can't see any KTM station there...
Then, i ask 1 guy for my destination...
Luckily, the KTM is just not far from the bus station...
After that, waiting for another half an hour for KTM to go back Serdang...
The journey was around 30 to 35 minutes...
After reaching Serdang, i was waiting at the bus stop for another half an hour again...
I was very tired & hungry at that moment & hoping the bus can come faster...
Before reaching my house, my brother already call me...
They thought something bad happens on me...
Because i arrived my house is almost 10pm already...
Next time cannot take evening fligt anymore...

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

生活

刚刚读到一篇email,觉得里面所说的话蛮有意思的...

钱不是万能的,但是没有钱就万万不能...

但,有钱不代表一切,感情,生命一般情况下钱是买不下来的...

我觉得这句话说得很有道理...

你有再多的钱,而忽略自己身边的人也是没用的...

到时候,你只会觉得拼死赚钱的意义是什么??

生活就是如此的现实与残酷...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Finally

Finally!!!!
My results are out...
First time after 2 years study at UTAR, i passed for all subjects...
I'm really happy about that...
When i login to the website in this morning, my heartbeat very fast...
I was so nervous to see my results...
After i saw all of the subjects passed, i feel very happy...
I was worried about my results this few days...
Until last night i was having a night mare...
Now, i can stay at home longer & not wasted for my flight ticket already...
Thanks to daddy's blessing...
Thanks to my family member's support...
Thanks to baby's support & praying...
Finally, my hard work is not wasted...
Finally, i'm not dissapoint myself & others!!!
Tonight really can have a nice sleep already...