由零开始

感觉上一切又回到原点了...
一切像是又由零开始...
未知数已解开...
但是，我依然下不了决定...
或许，是我捨不得吧...
我也不知道自己想要的是什么...
烦恼一大堆...
脾气也越来越暴躁...哎~
真的很讨厌这样的自己...
也许，憋在心里的烦恼太多了...
自己的朋友不在身边...
想找个倾诉的对象都有点困难...哎~
有时候，真的不知道自己在烦些什么...
有时想想，是不是自己太己人忧天了呢...
曾经有好几次，我想丢下那些烦恼...
然后，逃离这里...
可是，我知道自己不能那么自私...
我必须承担那些责任...
我必须解决我的问题...
我依然是脆弱的我...
我依然不够坚强去面对我生活的一切...

悲哀

哎!!!
真是悲哀叻...
差不多平均一个月伤风、感冒一次...
我真的受了office那么冷...
每天身穿那么厚的寒衣，依然觉得寒冷...
再加上最近的睡眠质素好差哦...
差不多每一晚都会发恶梦...
搞得每天早上都带着肿肿的眼睛上班...
之前，放工后还会很期待朋友上网聊天...
最近，看到大家在聊天室...
但，我却一点都提不起劲...
只是一直在电脑面前泡电视剧、小说...
因为太疲惫，搞得我不想说话...
还有，自己的心事...
我的未知数就快要解开了...
希望我的决定能在那时候而下...
不管是好、是坏，我都有算盘了...
等待揭晓吧...

有得必有失

最近，慢慢开始体会到这个道理了啦...
想得到一样也许就得放弃一样...
只是看看我们在抉择时，会做出怎样的衡量而已...
在新一年的开始，忽然收到一些消息...
这消息足以让我从新考虑自己原来的计划...
那影响力会蛮大的...
为什么总是没有两全其美的事情呢??
我还不想那么快下判断...
观察一阵子再做决定吧...

告别~

2010年的早晨，我选择上来这里...
本来是想昨晚来写的...
可是，有点累了...
我是来告别2009年的...
2009年对我有太多的伤心回忆...
而，那些伤心回忆都是因为他...
不过，因为他的绝情...
让我慢慢的走出伤心回忆...
慢慢的变坚强...
但，我依然想忘掉2009那伤心的回忆...
剩下的是我和UTAR朋友们的开心回忆...
和他们一起努力拼搏我们的最后一个学期...
和他们一起出去游玩...
我们的毕业旅行...
我们的毕业典礼...
毕业后的聚会...
这些一切的一切都让我好怀念...
我真的很感激和庆幸有他们在我的身边...
尤其是michael...
他陪我渡过很多伤心的日子、安慰我...
他还陪我一起读书面对最后一次的大考...
真的还好有他...
不然，我想我现在才毕业呢...
真的很感激、很感激他...
他是我的好知己...
好啦，告别了09年...
是时候欢迎10年的到来...
我希望10年会有一个好的开始...
那天看了风水书...
据书显示，肖兔的朋友在10年的运程还蛮好的...
健康、财运、事业都好...
在事业上应该多相信自己的能力和直觉...
我也希望我能守着承诺...
更希望能达到自己愿望和一切所计划好的...
再此，我也想祝福身边的家人、好友、朋友们...
新年快乐!!!
愿妈咪: 身体健康、开开心心
愿大哥: 事业更上一层楼、赚多多钱 XD
愿大姐: 事业、感情和学业都能更好
愿小弟: 转科后能顺顺利利、学业猛进
愿大学的好友和朋友们: 半工读的，学业和事业都更好...全职的，事业顺顺利利
愿KT的好友和朋友们: 还在读书的，加油哦!!你们也差不多要毕业了...希望大家能顺利毕业找到一份好工作...已工作的，一切顺顺利利吧!!
我也愿自己能在事业、学业和感情都能更好...XD
希望自己能赚多多钱来还''债''...哈哈=P

祝我生日快乐

22岁了...
这，应该是我过得最平凡的生日...
没有蛋糕...
没有蜡烛...
一个人独自在家里...
因为，不是很舒服...
结果，独自一个人在家里休息，没去上班...
妈和弟在回来的路途中...
姐呢，就去和她的ACCA打战了...
我没有怨言...
因为，这是有史以来，第一次没有任何期待生日...
哈哈...奇怪吧...
我期待的只是身边的好友、朋友祝福而已...
一一收到他们的祝福，我就开心、满足了啦...
我也在今天发觉到...
原来，在我认识的圈子当中，尽然有那么多人在1214生日耶...
祝福那些和我同天生日的朋友，生日快乐!!! ;)
我也要在此祝福我那些明天准备去打战的朋友们...
美菱、淑真、Rayson、Justin、Jacky和佩利，加油哦!!!

身心疲惫

其实，我想写blog好几天了...
但，一直都没有动手...
自己越变越懒惰了...
连写blog都要看心情而定...
最近的我变得有心无力...
之前，没工作的时候，就觉得太轻松、很无聊...
但，忽然之间，那些工作却堆积如山...
下个星期，姐考完试后，我们就要到别人的公司audit了...
不知道自己手头上的工作能如期完成吗??哎...
莫名的无力感再次袭击我...
我真的感到身心疲惫呢...
再加上，我看见那些与我一起战了4年的朋友们一个个为了考试而气馁，我更加无力...
我看着他们一个个本来很有斗志，到现在一个个说想放弃了...
我每天只是能用言语来鼓励、支持他们...
我很害怕自己到时候也会像他们一样...
我知道自己不该那么想...
所以，我也跟着他们感到无力...
真的好想到海边或是任何可以让自己静思、轻松的地方一下...
人累了，就会想要放慢脚步...
我才出来做工半年多，心里就开始有这样的想法...
真是惨!!!
或许，这不是我要的生活吧...
自从我回来以后，我变得很懦弱，也变得很依赖...
我很想找回以前的自己...
我在大学的时候，真的好想什么都不怕的...
敢在三更半夜独自一人从朋友的房间回到自己的房间...
敢做这个、敢做那个...
可是，现在的我，好像什么都怕...
可能是因为自己都是被保护着吧...哎...
不想说这些了啦...
自己的22岁生日快到了...
我却一点感觉都没有耶...
第一次有这样的感觉...
不知道是不是过了21岁，所以根本无所期待了...
不过，我还是要谢谢佩利、幼恬、健强和韵欣啦...
他们本来是要带我到一间cafe庆祝生日的...
但，那间cafe却没开...
不过，没关系啊...
我看见他们的心意，那就够了啦...=）
今天能见到他们，我是很开心的^^

Blessing

ACCA exam is around the corner...
Everyone is busy with their revision...
But, I'm so free & bored at this time...
As they away from their computer...
Anyway, I hope the best for all my dear friends & my sis...
They are taking the exam on next week...
I hope everyone can pass through this exam...=)
I'm also planning to take the exam on next sitting...
I don't want to stop at Degree stage...
I want to improve myself...
I don't know whether I can make it or not...
Somehow, I want to myself a chance to try...
No matter how tough it is, I want to go through it...
I just don't like my life to be in monotonous tone...
I want it to be more colourful...
Life without aim, it is meaningless to me...
So, hopefully everyone will found their aim...
Again, I wish my sis & all my dear friends GOOD LUCK & ALL THE BEST in their coming exam...

Decided

family photo at studio

the only gathering photo in my camera

Whee XD
Finally, I have made up my mind...
Finally, I decided for one path...;)
I still have 1 path to decide for...
That is still under my consideration...
May be when the time is there, my decision will be known...
Ok, let's update for my last 2 weeks activities...
Have been go to KL for my sis's convocation...
I'm really really happy to meet all my dear friends back...
First time hanging out around with Rayson & Kenny...
I knew them since pre-u, but we never went out before...
They really can talk a lot & make a lot of fun...Haha:p
I feel very nice to meet them again after our convocation...
Although I'm quite tired on that night, but it's fun to join them...=)
But, in between also having unfortunate case...
My younger bro's car being hit by a stupid fella whom don't know rushing where...
He spoiled our happy dinner...
We end up taking dinner at police station...Sigh...
Luckily, my younger bro's does not injured any where...
Hopefully he won't meet up with any unfortunate things after this...
On Sunday night, I went to Sunway to meet my classmates which are my very close friends...
They can say as my another family when I'm outside...
It's really really nice to gather with them again...
We had joy on that night...
We also plan to have a trip again next year...
Hopefully, the trip will be on =)
That's all for my simple updates...

Moodless

I have this kind of feelings since I woke up this morning...
I just don't know why...
This is the first time I don't feel like going to work...
This is the first thought in my mind this morning...
I never have this kind of feelings before when I study in UTAR...
May be I'm really miss all my friends there...
I'm those kind that can't stand for loneliness without friends...
Although I'm still keep in touch with some of them...
Somehow, we can't talk much also...
Anyway, thanks Rayson for talking with me just now...
At least I feel better now...
He says because he has magic to make me laugh...
Although we are talking nonsense, but I feel more relax...
On the other hand, may be I started to feel stress on my current department...
Audit somehow is a hard work...
We have to be careful while checking client's account...
We have to find out if there is imbalance amount...
I still need more time to adapt all these...
Before this, I'm handling accounts more than audit case...
I know everything also has it difficulties...
I will try my best to handle it!!

Lost

Again, I'm lost...
Lost in the middle of my life...
I found that, few of my friends are having the same problem as me...
We wondering what are we want actually...
I'm lost because of no aim??
I'm lost because of other reasons??
I'm also not sure about it...*sigh*
I just hating to have this meaningless life...
Everyday comes with routine...
Never ever have changes...
No exception...
Even though I'm having this kind of life before graduate...
However, I seldom thought of this...
May be there still a lot of friends in my surroundings...
I can talk, hang out, do any activities with them...
Some how, after I came back here...
I become quiet again...
Not to say I don't want to talk to my family members...
Sometimes is just that, I don't want to make them worry about me...
The only way I can do is on the computer & chat with my friends...
May be I also already used to the freedom I had in the past 4 years...
I'm still can't figure out the things I want in my mind...
Hopefully after I meet them, I will feel better =)